Frustrated-Tired-Pleased

I experienced distinctive emotional stages in a day, from feeling frustrated, sobbing, tired, to pleased. I'm tired, very tired now even though I finally get approval for the project submission.

Thanks Lord! Praise Him! Thank you for answering my prayer!


The following link is worthwhile to browse although I don't agree with all of what the author says. One thing I agree with is that don't leave the PhD program because of someone. It's not worthwhile to sacrifice your passion just because others seem to put obstacles in front of you.

Unhappy Mentorship

A professor shared her experiences with her academic advisor in the PhD program. Her advisor wasn't the one who cuddled students. When she felt good about her paper, her advisor, in contrast, questioned her writing. When she explained her writing, her advisor disagreed with her. Then, what she did was to go back and modify it.

I wasn't sure if she always remained calm when things seemed to go against her. But, her solution is what I need to learn. Take the advise and revise it. I totally understand why someone said that PhD program can fix the ego problem. I just realize that I'm such a person with pride. I feel good about my work because I unconsciously seek for being a perfectionist. So when someone questioned me or verbally smacked on my head I'd feel embarrassed and become defensive and hard to listen to the advise if that was really a good one. 

Remove ego away from me, please! No wonder I've been through these hard times, e.g., the period of teaching internship, and now.

Things have been changed since I was an intern teacher in a special education setting. I used to be blunt and almost fight with others who seemed to go against me. But now, I believe that interpretation of mentor's comments can go two extreme direction: (1) they are constructive and helpful advise or (2) totally obstacles against my progress. Interestingly, the relationship with mentors seems to bias the interpretation. This can go back to the foundation of trust built in between you and the mentor.

So it seems like that trust is the key to a healthy mentorship. Take such a heartedly advise!